Something on my mind.

 Do you ever wonder if that one person, just that one specific person from your past would ever come back in your life? Or how you'd react if they did? Or how would they react? Would they be pissed at you or would they just run up into your arms? We all know who I'm talking about. The First Crush. Everybody has one, but never get them to themselves. Only 18% of the people on the face of the earth know how it feels to have their crush like them back. Real statistic, look it up. The rest of us just take it as a lesson and try to learn from it. And then, one day out of the blue, that person comes back in your life and disrupts all that you've built ever since you lost them and moved on. You're SURE you don't have feelings for them anymore but you can't help it that you're attracted towards them again and it feels different but familiar. Weird, but powerful. You start to wonder again, your mind boggles at the possibilities that just opened up. Are you really attracted to that person or are you just trying to make up for younger self not getting what they wanted way back when? But that's rare, most people never meet their first crush ever again. What a weird word for a weird feeling. Crush. What does having a crush even really mean? I had a crush on this girl. The first ever crush and it hit me like a truck. So, if you say that it's called crush because that's how you feel, crushed, then to them I say NO. It hit me like a truck. I was roadkill not tin cubes. I don't know, these youngsters just keep making new stuff up every day. It's hard to keep track.

Sometimes I wonder, I wonder if anything good can come out of this. Humanity, I mean. We are simply the most successful cockroaches, if you really think about it. The only drawback is we can't survive a nuclear explosion. Gender, commerce, morality, society, governments, monogamy, these are all critically designed illusions that we impose on reality to try and gain some sense of control over our lives which is, evidently, impossible perhaps. We can't truly ever know because what would be the point of knowing everything there is to know about the universe? We seek purpose and hence, any primordial beings that read this blog, DONT LET HUMANS KNOW THAT YOU ARE THE TRUE GODS HERE. To the humans reading this, I'm just kidding...