Lately it has been a slow day...

I'm sure it's not just me, but lately I've been lacking motivation in life. Not to be confused with motivation to live. I've just been feeling if it all is worth it. Whether this world, THIS world being the surroundings I'm in, whether I gain ANYTHING from it. I'm all for optimistic, glass half full guy, but maybe that half isn't enough. Maybe I need something more significant, more valuable, harder to achieve, more stimulating, more rewarding, just more, I suppose. And I don't know how to get that. So, come with me on this journey and let's see what I can do when push comes to shove. I gotta be honest, I'm not too confident about this go-getter attitude but let's see. Faith is funny like that...

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Pasta man, where's the pasta?????
11/11/23 7:11 PM
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