A Man's Biggest Problem

 Lately, the one problem that keeps holding me back from achieving my dream. The problem is I don't know what women want. I am bisexual for reference but I guess I was so exposed to the idea of a man and a woman creating a family that I am more inclined towards women. Trust me, gay men have no troubles communicating with their partners. It is simply much more effective. I have to say, I am losing faith... I don't have high expectations, I don't have unattainable standards, I don't understand where I am wrong. I'm sure it's somewhere but someone tell me where. I am not a possessive person, I keep my jealousy in check, I don't let my insecurities affect my partner's lifestyle choices. I am supportive, loving, caring, I do things before she would even think to ask. I am reliable, dependable, adaptable, and reasonable. What more am I supposed to give to achieve something that people are just stumbling upon, people who don't even deserve it...


Through the ages, love and marriage was the one thing that was so frivolous that animals could never understand. You take a dog and try to teach it to live like a human. You will almost succeed because this veneer concept of fidelity and matrimony is just lost on the dog. And it makes me wonder, do we humans need it? I mean the animal kingdom is thriving without it. Maybe that is what is holding us back from happiness, this burden of needing to have a love life and a career, both of which are human trafficking romanticized. Ah, who am I kidding? I love being in love, I love everything about it. But it just seems like a loser's bet sometimes. Feels like I'm in a casino and the house always wins. 


It feels like I need someone, but I know I'll survive peacefully, so I can conclude that this is just an urge that will help me achieve peace, but is the sacrifice worth the reward? The question I find myself asking more often in the recent times. But hey, maybe there's hope for this old SOB still. But I suspect I'll need an assist when the time comes...

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