The Search Within
I may have a purpose or two on this earth
To live, love and prosper, I first need to prove my worth
Would it even make a difference in the end?
For there are things stronger than even I can comprehend
It could be my own doing, where I got to now
In this state of mental suffering, falling further down
Grasping at straws of my conscience with all my might
It still feels like I very well may be fighting a losing fight
To love, to live, to pray, and to play
I force myself, to stop the rapid decay
My time is coming, I feel it in my bones
It sounds like crazy talk, yeah I know
Can I cover my eyes and make it go away?
I feel like a prisoner in my mind when I say
I'm covering my ears like a kid, when your words don't make sense
When life starts to disintegrate, I feel like I'm fading away
With love in my heart and hate thrown at my skin
I march into the cave, trying to find it within
I struggle with walking, my knees feel weak
I need some strength, I need strength to even breath
I stumble in the cove, starving for food
Living with demons, I didn't know I could
Didn't know if I'd survive the test of time
Borrowed so much of it already, didn't know if I would
Didn't know if I've find what I'm looking for, I still wander
Is it all pointless, silently in my head, I ponder
I've tried my best, or have i, I wonder
I look at the lightning, as I wait for the thunder
I accept that I can't escape the cave how much I try
It continues to fill up with my shouts of plea and cries
For someone to come save me from myself and lift me
To help me be better, be wiser, kinder, nicer and free
As I wander deeper, in search of the mythical waterfall
I talk to myself about giving up and letting go of it all
I understand the consequences of it would be dire
But it may bring back the flame within, ignite the fire
In the end, this search for purpose in our mind
Is the point of life, you are what you find
You define yourself with the signs of who you were
For me, I hope it was a soul that was pure, sweet and kind.
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