Why was I so confused? It's all so easy.

 Hello, how've you been? You're done? What do you mean? But I need you, can't you see how much you mean to me? With the thought of you every morning I rise, I would go to whatever lengths just to see you smile. Oh please have some faith in yourself, trust me, I would keep you happy, if I could have you for a while. If hell froze over, that would be nice, For I could join you in heaven for the rest of time, But even if it doesn't, I'll still break out, To come back to you, because you are what my life is all about. If it comes, if it goes, my love you're hurt and it shows I would take care of you, keep you happy, keep you close, So let us hit the road, drive to a hilltop and lie on the grass, Stare at the moon while I stare at you, it's you who I'll always choose. So take my hoodie, don my shirts, Feeling this way, for me it's a first, I don't know what it is that you got, But no one does what you do, you are all I got. You see me for who I am and

 Reasons to give, reasons to love Reasons to care, to care for some, To bond and grow, to hell with what may come  So when you see the boogeyman, run run run You thought it's easy, you didn't expect, You didn't love the way one should, gave no respect Now you shall wander around as a reject Because what you sow in this world is what you get The bad you do stays with you, The good you do comes back to you, For most this doesn't make any sense, And one's who get it don't think it's true. They think the world is cruel, They make their hardships their fuel  With visors covering their world view, It seems darker to them, blurred by hue Remedies for restitution, for debts must be paid, Spreading butter on a toast, while spewing venomous hate, in the world as you hate it to be, it must be so hard, Then take yourself out of this world to make it a better place We need better people to spread joy, Not one's that would rather place a decoy  So many reasons to give

Max here was a great French leader of his time and played a huge role as the leader of the French Revolution. He spearheaded the operation and was the one to execute King Louis XIV, and brought about perhaps one of the greatest stories of freedom ever told. His ideology? People in power need to be held accountable for their actions. Great message wouldn't you say? I mean it was more difficult for the French to do that because it was a monarchy, rather than a government that claims to be to, of and for the people. So, it should supposedly not have to reach the point of beheading the head of the country to have them held accountable, right? So, it doesn't have to be so difficult to achieve a simple harmony between the people and the government. Robbie then went on to live the best time of his life. From fighting the rulers of the great nation for the rightful resources that the people deserve, and need to survive, to being the deputy of the National Assembly. Maximillian climbed

 Lately, the one problem that keeps holding me back from achieving my dream. The problem is I don't know what women want. I am bisexual for reference but I guess I was so exposed to the idea of a man and a woman creating a family that I am more inclined towards women. Trust me, gay men have no troubles communicating with their partners. It is simply much more effective. I have to say, I am losing faith... I don't have high expectations, I don't have unattainable standards, I don't understand where I am wrong. I'm sure it's somewhere but someone tell me where. I am not a possessive person, I keep my jealousy in check, I don't let my insecurities affect my partner's lifestyle choices. I am supportive, loving, caring, I do things before she would even think to ask. I am reliable, dependable, adaptable, and reasonable. What more am I supposed to give to achieve something that people are just stumbling upon, people who don't even deserve it... Through the

 When is it okay to give up? When can I let go of her and finally move on from this frustrating chapter of my life? This is the longest problem I've had, it's as old as I am. Afterall, in the end it is the one thing that still has the power over me to tie me down. She is the one who can still bring me back to when I was a rampant 15 year old with anger management and commitment issues. I've tried countless things to fix the problems between us. I've tried every way I could've come up with. And I've even tried the way she wants me to be, because what if I'm wrong , right? But nothing worked, and it is clear now, the problem is her. She is the cause of the issues and unfortunately, only she can fix this. I would much rather have the problems be with me completely because I know I can trust myself with it to fix it and be better next time. But her, she is my kryptonite. She's the one person that the dumb messiah could never help. And to make it worse, she i

 You know what's funny? I never expected this blog to gain so much popularity. Now, I know it isn't famous and stuff but still, I just thought it'll be lost in a dark corner of internet years ago. But now, we have over a thousand views. And I can't get over the fact that over a thousand people are actually curious to read the bullshit I spew. My most viewed posts include An Ode to Odile, What Could've Been. Now, I have a decent feeling who keeps rereading the Odile post. So, thank you, Odile. Sometimes, I wish you had a better eye for friends and people you keep close to yourself. The crowd you run with is what leads you down the path of pain every time. As of now, only Nancy is someone who's actually good for you. Everyone else you hang out with are just viruses. They'll corrupt your heart until there's nothing left to corrupt. But nuff about someone who would replace me with any other person who has a bike. The What Could've Been post is something